My World Upside Down

“Hello, Mom! Don’t worry about me, I am okay, I am doing great! I will graduate ma that is a promise!”
I am Nathan, 19, a fourth year student of a well known university in our city. I have been in the dean’s list for three consecutive years, and my mentor told me that if nothing goes wrong I can graduate as Cum Laude or even Magna Cum Laude or the best part is I may be the Suma Cum Laude for this year. That was the future intended for me, written in very bold letters, scripted in stones but no one thought that those things are merely written and would not be realized. Let me bring you back to that afternoon that would change the course of my life.
It was an ordinary afternoon for a student like me. I was sitting quietly on the bench at the lobby of our school. I was so engrossed with the book I am reading. Well, who would not be, I am reading the 7th of the 7 sequels of the Harry Potter series written by the great J.K. Rowlings. I heard noise coming near me; it was the sound of a shoe having contact with the floor. I curiously looked at the direction of the noise; to my surprise I saw a girl of an extraordinary beauty. She has a long black shiny hair, rosy red cheeks and lips more beautiful than Angelina Jolie’s. I thought I saw Hermoine Gringer, but it was not her, it was a girl who really exists. Her presence blew me away and my eyes, they are anchored on her, and my head could have turned 360 degrees. I anxiously followed her and I confidently introduced myself. “Hi miss my name is Nathan, Nathan Velasco, can we be friends?” “I am Mae, Mae Cruz, third year architecture student. Sure we can be friends, I have to go for now, I have to enter my class so that I can be one of the great architects in the world, bye!” I am so speechless that I just waved my hand as a response. With so much joy, I jumped, I shouted and I dropped harry potter.
We became friends. We go out a lot, I eventually fell in love and one night, I confessed my feelings to her. “Mae, there is something I have to tell you. I am not used to this but all I know is I LOVE YOU! Would you be my girlfriend?” I said as I held her hands so tight. “Yes, I would be very glad to Mr. Velasco!” “Oh thank you, Mae I would take care of you, I would never let you down, I would love you in every way I can!” That was the beginning of the night that has changed me. Our relationship went well; we made it to our first month. I want to make it special for her; I decorated my apartment with a romantic look. There’s candles, roses everywhere and champagne which my mom suggested. She arrived looking so beautiful that made my heart beat faster and faster as she gets near. “boog, boog, boog”. We ate, and exchange romantic gifts and I love you’s. We kissed and because of the adrenaline rushing through our bodies; we made love. I was her first and she was my first too. It was one of the happiest nights of my life.
One morning after a month that night, I woke up with a happy face and excitement in my heart for it is our second month as lovers. I am singing my favorite song by my favorite band. “Make me alive, make me suffer, make me feel.” Suddenly I heard a loud knock, a knock that made me nervous. “Nathan, Nathan, open the door! Nathan where are you, Nathaaaan!” I opened the door and it was Mae with a very worried and distracted face. “Mae, why, what happened, is there any problem?” “I am pregnant Nathan, it is your baby, you are the father and that means I will be a mother. At a very young age I am going to be a mother, this can’t be happening. What shall we do?!” “I don’t know. I don’t know! I’m still young I have lots of dreams for me and for my mother; I am not ready for this Mae. I don’t know how to be a father, I don’t know Mae,I don’t know! I am so sorry!” She slapped my face and ran away.
I returned to my bed, and lied down, confused, weary, worried and anxious. My phone rang, it was the message alert, it’s my mother texting me saying “Son, you are our hope; your degree means a lot. I really hope you can graduate, take care son!” That text even made me sadder. “Oh no, what have I done? My dreams would be shattered. I don’t know what to do! I want to die, my life is useless now. I can’t graduate, I have impregnated someone and I know it would also shatter her dreams, I am going to be a father and I don’t know how to and I don’t know what to do, I’d better put a bullet on my head and leave all these problems.”
I was about to pull the trigger of the gun when I remembered the smile of Mae and my mother. I slowly put down the gun and laid my head on the floor. “I still can’t be a father, I am still a child and I don’t know what to do!” Bob, one of my schoolmates suddenly appeared in my head saying the words he used to tell me “If you impregnate someone, just give me a call and we’ll take her to an abortionist and whoah problem solved!” I am about to call him when another voice talked to me and said “No, don’t do that, that would make the situation worse! Keep the child! Be human, the child has life too!” I don’t know what to do at the very moment! The voice keeps getting in my head! I don’t know which I am going to follow, should I have it aborted or should I keep it. I finally came to a decision and I decided to keep the child, I can still earn a degree even if not now, I don’t want to be a murderer! My father once told me that being a father is not easy but it is not impossible!
I hurriedly went to Mae’s apartment to tell her that I am ready to be a father now and I would take care of her and our future baby. While on the taxi I thought of names that I should give to my baby “Alexander would be great for a boy and Alexandria would be exquisite for a girl.” Because of too much anxiety and excitement I forgot to get my change from the taxi driver. I arrived at the doorway of Mae’s apartment knocking excitedly. I knocked more than ten times so I decided to enter the house for it was left unlocked. “Mae, Mae, where are you? I am here now, I am ready to face my responsibilities, I am so sorry for my behavior a while ago! Mae, please, where are you! I will enter your room I you won’t open this door!” I opened the door, I jumped to her bed hoping to give her a heartfelt hug, to my surprise she was not responding. I felt a thick red liquid running through my hands. “Oh no! Oh no! Mae is dead, she killed herself! Lacerating herself to death! Oh no! Oh my God, Mae is dead! Mae please, please! I am so sorry! Oh no what have I done? Because of my cowardice the girl I love and our future baby is now dead! Mae, I am so sorry, I love you so much! Mae!