I am the kind of student who always gets to get the attention of people. In short I make a way to be on the limelight. Guess what? I always succeed. Many people would think that I might be the happiest and most secure person in the world. My life may look perfect in their eyes, but what they do not know is that it's the contrary.
I can easily gain friends and has the guts to entertain people, but unfortunately there is this part of me that longs for something. Even if I'm with many people I still feel alone. I really can't figure out the reason but deep inside I'm unhappy. And sometimes I tend to make fun out of other people just to make myself laugh. I know that I have been posting many positive articles as to how we should face life but beneath those lines are my insecurities and frustrations. Life is never cruel to me but I'm being cruel to myself.
There is this one person who said to me after he had read my blog, he said "you know?how I wish to be like you. Full of life and full of positive energy". But what he does not know is that those posts are intended to cheer me up and lighten my insecurities in life. I may have given the best pieces of advice to those who are weary and insecure but what a contrary, I can;t even let those pieces of advice sink in to my system.
Honestly I'm so lost! It's as if in a dark cave longing for a light, thirsty for something I can't even identify and hungry for things I wish I had.
I can easily gain friends and has the guts to entertain people, but unfortunately there is this part of me that longs for something. Even if I'm with many people I still feel alone. I really can't figure out the reason but deep inside I'm unhappy. And sometimes I tend to make fun out of other people just to make myself laugh. I know that I have been posting many positive articles as to how we should face life but beneath those lines are my insecurities and frustrations. Life is never cruel to me but I'm being cruel to myself.
There is this one person who said to me after he had read my blog, he said "you know?how I wish to be like you. Full of life and full of positive energy". But what he does not know is that those posts are intended to cheer me up and lighten my insecurities in life. I may have given the best pieces of advice to those who are weary and insecure but what a contrary, I can;t even let those pieces of advice sink in to my system.
Honestly I'm so lost! It's as if in a dark cave longing for a light, thirsty for something I can't even identify and hungry for things I wish I had.
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